Psychiatrist Dr Andrew Iles appears to blame victim for abuse

I have been remembering a line from one of Dr Andrew Iles' (psychiatrist at Priory Wellbeing Centre, Oxford) clinic letters to my GP from July 2019, which I only skim read at the time and appears to point the blame at me for childhood sex abuse I endured. The letter was worse than I thought. I told Iles in clinic how the Brethren Gospel Hall church slut shamed victims and how once a preacher said from the platform when I was 15 that if a man has sexual thoughts towards a woman it is always her fault. I then told Dr Andrew Iles I thought I may be to blame for sex abuse from imprisoned paedophile Cundick (https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-surrey-30817150), due to a button of my skirt coming undone when I was playing when I was 12 or the fact that I asked Cundick for a hug aged 9, or another paedophile in the same church who offered hugs to me when I was aged 14, although I now understand that nothing a child does can ask for sex abuse and the victim is never to blame. But I also realised I perhaps should not have expressed these fears in clinic to Dr Iles. In his letter of 12th July to my GP Iles writes: ''Lina is able to recognise that her anorexia nervosa may have developed as the sole way of having some control over a situation in which she felt powerless'' with the word 'recognises' about anorexia, seeming to mean, she 'understands'. 'Recognise' in the dictionary means to recall someone and the other Cambridge dictionary definition of ''recognise'' is ''to accept that something is legal, true, or important:'' The thing that tipped the balance for me is: In the very next paragraph he writes ''Lina remembers how she craved hugs, which she recognises led to her victimisation at the hands of paedophiles.'' So taking the word 'recognises', again in parallel with the preceding paragraph, it seems I am apparently to understand that it is legal, true and important that my craving hugs led to sex abuse!!! That seems to be a doctor's opinion in a medical letter to my GP, which would simply feed on my own blame feelings I had at the time and that is how I feel about what he wrote. (If Iles didn't mean this, he needs major lessons on how to word letters and especially on those regarding sensitive subjects about abuse victims because in context of the previous paragraph that is what I have surmised and I'm entitled to my fair opinion of how his words can be hurtful!) People outright blaming me for sex abuse bothers me but a doctor questioning me for wanting hugs off a paedophile who skilfully groomed me age 9 and said Doctor telling my GP that I recognise that is what happened, beats the record! Having quoted the letter to you - you as the reader can make up your own mind what Iles meant. I'm sure the average reader would agree at best it was very poorly worded and at worst is an attempt at victim blaming abuse victims.